ptl

fear is a funny thing. the opposite of love the bible calls it. sometimes I get really afraid when people who what I'm really like, or how I think, or what makes me tick, or what makes me feel loved. I get scared that once they figure me out they wont want to keep me apart of their life any more. but then He reminded me that I shouldn't be looking for my worth in what people think of me. I should remember that just like an earthly princess doesn't get crowned a princess because of what she does or how good at something she is, shes a princess because her dad is a king. royalty is running through her veins. she didn't earn it. she was born with it. royalty is running through my veins now too. and even though i fail him daily, it doesn't stop how highly He esteems me. hooooly, I'm so screwed up but He loves me anyway, what the?! 

Most of the time life is pretty flippin awesome. God is good. PTL.

but it also helps when you have great people around you.

blessed

What a bressing!

Last night me and simba got half way through making these:

This isn't our one though. We haven't melted the crayons just yet.  because we went to the pool as well and after sticking on everything we didnt even realise that it was 11pm!
I really just love his creativity. he's such a breath of fresh air! Gosh I'm lucky! AND I get type written letters to me every now and then! 

I'm also really lucky to have such amazing flatmates! I can smell lots of cupcakes in my room from the kitchen. Yay leigh! 

Now I've got 5 assignments to do in 3 weeks! pray for me. haha 

One more thing, I learnt in my lectures today that 40% of New Zealands population identify themselves as a sort of Christianity, catholic majority, 10% associate themselves with other religions and a massive 50% of our population call themselves atheists or have no association with any label to do with religion. 

I also learnt that the new type of global religion is assumed that it will be fundamentalism, with a political point of view. 

High school blitz is in 6 days. Its our job to introduce these highschoolers to the greatest person in their life! yeah buddy. 

Give me faith

Its funny how people would be so inclined to share their deepest secrets on a blog and not to people who care about them. 

this song is so testimony to my life right now

God is good. and his love is great!  

not long now and then I'll be free! 

I know there is someone in heaven who will come
at last to my defense. 

Job 19:25

| There's something so exciting about risk taking. |

you know that story about how jesus fed 5000 men, and well after that it says he told his disciples to go back to the boat and sail out into the river. but he stayed on shore and went up a mountain to pray; and then a massive storm hit and the disciples thought that they were going to die or something so he got up and went to the boat over the water to go help them. Peter saw him walking on water and was like "is that you? if it is, tell me to come to you" so jesus, because it was him, said "come to me" and peter jumped off the boat and walked on water toward jesus. and it was great for a while, until peter got scared of the big waves and the wind so he started sinking and he was like "jesus help me!" so jesus put out his hand and pulled peter up with him. and he says oh ye of little faith. yeah..
when i  was reading that i was like, wow. because it's so encouraging that the people that were with jesus all the time, the ones that were with him while he was on earth, still struggled with their faith, because the same strength and faith that jesus had, has been given to us, so why can't we just walk on water too? but then I reckon that jesus didn't look at the boat and think crap, there's water in my way, I better up my faith so I can cross and help my homeboys. I reckon he saw them struggling and was so full of compassion that he didnt even see the water and just started walking. driven by his compassion. 
its funny being a christian now, and having to go into everything with a blind faith, and just believing. but it's cool, it teaches us more.
like when you look at a baby slash toddler that learning to walk, or has it's first steps. the mum's like twenty inches away and is just edging it on saying come on, come to mumma, come to mumma, and it takes one step and falls over but its okey, because the mum is there to help the baby back up again, and then she starts again saying it's okey, you're amazing, just come to mumma.. and then the toddlers feet just put one foot in front of the other. and before you know it, they're across the other side of the room! 
it was a risk. we can fall but we have something bigger than a mother to pick us back up again. 
he's not going to let us go through anything we can't handle, and he doesn't put us through things to punish us or to teach us a lesson.  
he is our father. 
he is the creator, not just creative. 

'praise him!'

I feel like I have learnt a lot about bicycles since I've been down here. 
I feel like I say 'I feel like' too much. 
Last night I did my first ever test at uni. it was okey. I'm now on holiday! 
New Empire helps me study. and as a reward for finishing my test I listened to Ascend the Hill. 
I still don't like uni too much, but the peace I have about this city, I know it's where I'm supposed to be. 
wish I was going to passionate. but I get to see my Nana this weekend. it's going to be the greatest holidays of my life. 
Milkshakes are still the greatest lolly and you can get them separate! 
I miss fate kitz quite a bit. 
it's so crazy, I watched the 'for freedom' video from life church and ooop there is my old youth pastor. it's pretty cool hey. growing up I had a lot of musical influences in my life. 


I cannot wait to travel. Fave topic to bring up right at the moment is "top two places you would want to go like right now!" currently mine would be Santorini Island and the Great wall of China. 


I have the most beautiful flatmates. that really just want the best for me. 
I need a serious attitude change. this holidays I'm going to be just a little bit more responsible because that's what is needed of me. I'm so excited for Amber to see Neihana. and most of them are going to be at passionate! and it's in less than 10 hours. I'm excited for the life change that people are going to get. In fact I feel like I should really be there.
also, ihave a great boyfriend. and God is so good!